Me: Inside Out

On the journey of my life. Praying my way through, and living the best way I know how. Loving you. Loving my team. Most importantly, Loving Me :)

You wonder why I’m so broken, then sit back and watch me breaking. You break me, I’m aching because you pulled a trigger. I gave you a loaded gun and put you in charge of safety, one simple click, stupid enough to believe that you would save me, not be the judge, jury and executioner. fueled by the lies that you really loved, I stayed faithful played the fool and let you rape the soul out of me, a passion for the fairytale you always burned from my flesh and dream, I got lost in making up for everything you never needed. Took my heart for play and walked me down the aisle all the while your “I do” was locked and loaded, holding me by the throat you laughed and let me stop breathing. Drowning in the regret of my honesty your lies clouded the beast in you with beauty. I beat myself senseless for fear of wrongdoing yet you laughed at every wasted breath until there wasn’t much of me left to crush and fixed yourself to walk away, pulling me like puppet strings these things always get tangled. Mangled by I couldn’t forgive myself and Fuck you for your theivery, you assassinate my character in hopes I yeild to your deepseeded need to meet the devil in me. Well you are welcome to my dungeon, say hello to the fuckery. If I was too broken before, I should be downright fucking scary each crack in my armour bleeds out whatever sanity I’ve been chanced to meet and you my dear have just become the target practice for the seal of my new bandaid, I’ll be sure to spit and polish at application so that you’ll eventually add to my beauty. I am a monstrous masterpiece only made mischevous by the lustful demons that play russian roulette with the softest parts of my dream. You were just supposed to Love me!

—©MayMayMonique 2014
“You were jusr supposed to Love me…” (via shermaniamonique)

just*

You always tried to save *me* from yourself, while I always tried to save *you* from yourself. Life is ironic. Life is absurd. Life is a nonsense at times. Life is. It just is, though. Like love is. It just is. Like we are. We just are.

—(via xnewmodelx)

That’s been one of my mantras — focus and simplicity. Simple can be harder than complex; you have to work hard to get your thinking clean to make it simple.

—Steve Jobs (via mrajosiah)

I watch you channel your
pain into art, into poetry,
into music, into prayer.

It baffles me how you
embrace life with so much
agony and refuse to ask
for anything in return
except the precious
privilege of expression.

weloveshortvideos:

Vine by Kenzie Nimmo

poeticartillery:

I’m learning that love isn’t all rainbows and kisses. There’s a whole lot of rain clouds and umbrellas involved.

It’s easy to fall in love but there’s a heightened level of difficulty when it comes to staying in love.

The fairy tales don’t tell you that.

What makes us right with God isn’t what we do or don’t do, nor is it what we say or don’t say. What makes us right with God is our faith in what Jesus accomplished for us on the cross as a Man fully submitted to the Father. We’re called to live and walk by faith in Him, not in ourselves.

—(via sonofhislove)

blackfashion:

Kristine of TrendyCurvy.com, Los Angeles
Photographer: Steve Suavemente

blackfashion:

Kristine of TrendyCurvy.com, Los Angeles

Photographer: Steve Suavemente

The idea is to write it so that people hear it and it slides through the brain and goes straight to the heart.

—Maya Angelou (via writingbox)

(via quiltedsails)